miracle lab

i got up as i had planned.......despite coffee and cigarettes last night......took the 44 to kingsway......then the X4 to merthyr.......then the No.6 to aberdare.........then the no.9 to aberaman..........the S bend.......and the surgery........went up the stairs........sat in front of the larger-than-life window.........felt for the piece of paper in my pocket.........my mother-in-law sent it by post.........two pages of prayers, in ukrainian.......of the old orthodox church.......it was there for sure........neither am i superstitious......nor do i believe in god........but the old lady will be overjoyed to know that i do..........so i did........and then i went to the phone.......agog and iced..........i have been waiting for 13 months......since the day that i landed......when you are closing 360 months of life.......with a message in a bottle.......every wait is excruciating.........especially when you are being connected...........so i spoke to bev......even she didnt want to commit to a 100% guarantee...........but thats because i scared her maybe........like oliver twist did......but she couldnt help telling me 99% yes...........is this the turning point........is this my eureka......will this be my small step.......or am the billionth bottle.......waiting to be washed up on the shore......sad that you only live once........life is an experiment i would love to do over and over again......and keep the memory of each life past.......i am going to find work in the miracle lab