vagina multilogue

why arent vaginas beautiful?
a face is beautiful....and to each his own......complexion.....form......structure......type........for each feature.......and therefore the jigsaw......
men choose their women by their faces.....well......bodies.......i have somehow still not matured to look at women in their totality.......like many friends of mine......
but the human species anyhow.....chooses its mate by the beauty of the skin........of course there are other things as well.......matching the intellect.......for example........but i think thats the case when its something serious like making babies........
but when the human species is out on a saturday........mating is only skin deep........thank god for contraception.....otherwise we would be a population of ill matched genetic offspring.....destined to eradication between the crushing wheels of time and evolution.......
so we have been intelligent........and we devised a way out of it.......so while we are having a good time......we contracieve...........and when we get serious.......we find a matching mate.....and then stop to contracieve........and concieve...........how intriguing.......
unfortunately........very often it doesnt exactly work like that.........so there is a small trickle of the dodos........o well......god should have made a better plan........
in the meanwhile.........we want to have more fun.........so we contracieve more and more........and we strive to look more beautiful........the beauty graph is peaking........hand in hand with the contracieving graph.......taking fun to dizzy heights........haha........
and for better fun-mating, everyone is cashing in on whatever they have got.......enhance every aspect of your beauty........cosmetic industry is working overtime to provide new options.......more models are being made to promote more products that make them models......making even more models........
so if we continue to be intelligent.......and eventually realise that this is the only way god wanted us to progress......and we start spending every penny on beauty..........so we are done with war....nukes.....religion......poverty.......pollution............we have taken care of everything............and thousand years hence..............everyone is beautiful............
what a world............
will vaginas be beautiful then??
today they are not.........in fat....all vaginas look alike.........anatomically........cosmetically.......photogenically........graphically...............well there are differrences........but as much as between differrent members of the crow species........
thats precisely the reason why i will probably always have only one woman...........beauty i like to appreciate........but sex is all the same..............there might be some carnal excitement in screwing a beautiful face to glory.........haha..........but thats likecutiing the stem of the adorable flower which could have lived its normal span............natasha always argues that men get attracted to a beautiful face.......and then want to mate..........because there is some supposed enjoyment in mating with another beautiful face.....and then another.......and then another.........and then another..........haha
but i argue...........that such a male is actually screwing a vagina........the face was long lost........haha..........the appreciation of beauty slowly died.........when the will to fun-mate filled the air......
i dont think lower animal have a concept of beauty..........i mean peacocks.........male peacocks......spread their feathers to attract females...............i think they look more beautiful than any other bird i have ever seen............but i dont think the female peahen for this poor guy is putting up the show for considers the male "beautiful".........i believe they associate characteristics like power......territory.........strength........fertility............................but not beauty...................no......not beauty.........
human species are the only ones with a copyright onn it.............its our domain.........we KNOW..........what it is........
and thats why vaginas are not beautiful..........
well......not yet........they dont have to be.........i think because they are supposed to have a differrent function..........at least in times of today..........haha......and in fact......everything that i have said can equally apply to penises..........but for the perverted variety in lengths and breadths......there is barely another distinguishing feature..........let alone a vision of beauty..............perhaps.........but we are evolving..........haha
ad thats where all these thoughts came into my mind.........
what if a thousand years in the future...........human species shuns clothes..........and patterns of mating change..........the decreasing population forces social changes.............birth becomes primary...............will things change......??

despite the monkey

never losing touch

couldnt have thought

he'd change so much

for those who got offended by some of the things i said above......it might bring comfort you to know that i am a citizen of the world.......science is my religion............i love the earth..........i dont believe in the concept of god...........and i dont give a shit about politics.....and i am a feminist........as shit as it sounds..........


alright......dont get serious.......it was just a vocabular excercise.......i am always sorry.
this doesnt effect your statutory rights......ha

just an excuse

because the previous post was so perorated......i am obliged to report on how things are now.......i did jog........but now i have given up more or less.......the aim is still there.........5 kilos by march.........typing is still goin well..........so thats alright........studies were a lil less last two days.........wards were in a mess.........but i will pick now.......i have nights coming from day after tomorrow......so it should be fine.........and the hope of touching the shores of australia is in pursual as well............still far away.......but the pace is acceptable...........in short .......i havent moved mountains yet..............but i am gathering the machinery for it..........i will do it.

but the reason i logged on for is differrent........

how horrifying is this......

some guy went to his girlfriends flat late evening.....she had a toddler baby.........he killed her stabbing her multiple times ..........and then left unnoticed.........she was found in the morning in a pool of blood...........the baby was found asleep on his dead mother in the pool of blood.........presumably the baby cried all night and then went to sleep out of exhaustion........

it scares the wits out of me........my heart sinks when i go ove this story...........and i have gone over it many times............it lies in some complect of neurones inside my slow-firing brain..............and its obviously not new..........its probbly a yer old ......summer of 2005........i read it while sitting in cardiff bus no. 8............going to or coming from the heath............its was a small paragraph column.......on page 7 or 8........writtem in small text.......and i got goosebumps in the heat of summer.........if i were a girl my eyes would have moistened.......perhaps they even did........

my favourite part is when it was written in the news report that the presumably the baby wept all night and then went to sleep on his dead mum.........

what does that do to you........

it kills me

in psychiatry..........grieving is described as a process of 6 stages.......
numbness
denial
yearning
depression
aggression
guilt
reintergration.......

i go through all of them everytime i recall this story.............

i hate the reintegration.........i hate to get back to normal...........i hate getting used to it.........i hate finding the bank statement that needs sorting............i hate to lose sight of the baby.........the incident.......the boyfriend.............

like roger waters said..........its symbolic of our failure..........

like gandhi felt..............for no sound reason.........i feel responsible.........

and like no one else..........or perhaps like everyone else......i feel helpless.

and then i feel like my two year daughter......wo doesnt speak all that much yet.........saying to me...........daddy, thats just an excuse.

the game

so heres the plan............

i have already cut the cheque.......so i am appearing on 5th march again........

daily schedule is tied up............will subscribe to onexamination.com too.....
have to publish my research for HSMP.......
do the three audits in my mind......
learn touch typing..........20 mins everyday......
jog every morning and shed 5 kilos.......

the list obviously is endless on my pda.......but this is the gist....and we start today......tonight......now on......

let this be the wash up........

you have great expectations......pip.......

no failing this time.......and there is a lot on my plate........

on 5th march 2007...........i should be a superdoc with mrcog part 1 cleared......
shed 5 kilos.....
touch type master......
three audits done.......
one article published.......at least........
and be ready for the next sequential failure........to put me on this personal war footing again.......

hmmmmm........i like this game.....